Contest winner for our washington boudoir photoshoot
I had the pleasure of Photographing the winner of the “how i became me contest”. It was such a pleasure meeting this beautiful young mother and fulltime college student . I got to shoot her on her families property in Washington. A beautiful piece of land in the columbia river gorge. I did victoria’s hair and makeup before we headed out to a lovely field to catch golden hour lighting. She had this vintage chair that has been in the family for generations and had a lot of meaning to her. Through getting to know this young mother i found a beautiful shy quiet woman transform right in front of my camera lense into a vibrant stunning women. This women is strong and full of drive. She balances mother hood, working and a fulltime college student. She is full of life and so gorgeous. Thank you victoria for giving me the opportunity to photograph you.
There were times that I felt Like I was just another statistic and was just another young single mother. That I just couldn’t get my life together. It took me month’s to realize that I was an incredible human being, that I was much more than the little person my ex had made me believe I was.
Back in november 2016 I decided to leave the man I had started a family with and Had thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I left due to domestic violence and alcoholism. I fought for 3 years struggling to keep this idea of family together. The reason I left was because my sister’s forced me out. I didn’t see the pain I was going thru until I actually left. But That is the only the beginning of this.
For months I thought I could never Love again. I never thought I was good enough. Not in anything, from being a mother to the day to day. I didn’t believe in happiness. I lost the spark in my life and was spiraling in depression. I couldn’t find the faith in myself to move forward. I felt weak for letting myself get so far into this depression and even weaker for having to admit to my family and loved ones how far gone I was. Even worse I was surviving off my parents and felt ashamed in doing so. I had left with nothing but some bags and boxes of only the necessities that would fit in my car. Most of which was for my son. I felt a deep sense of failure to my son and to myself. I was a strong willed christian, How was this happening to me. I prayed! I kept trying! But for some reason I kept failing.
I hardly spoke about my struggles to anyone. One day, I finally opened up to my sister and my friend. Without their guidance I would probably still be a broken and shattered women. I realized then it was okay to ask for help, to lean on others and seek wisdom. It does not make you weak to ask for help or need support. It makes you strong to know your limits and seek others for support and help. Know your limits. I learned it is okay to cry about my pain and feelings. Tears are a release and can make you stronger.
I am a 23 year old single mother and I wouldn’t change a thing about the trials I have faced These recent few months I’ve learned how truely beautiful of a person I truly am. Yes I have stretch marks and I am not a size 2. I rock a mom bun everyday and sometimes I don’t have time or the energy to do my hair and makeup. But I have a much larger beauty than that. I don’t have to fake happiness anymore. It’s there and it’s real. I have worked long and hard to get where I am today. I realized I am much bigger than the abuse I went thru. I am a beautiful mother and women and no one can take that away from me.
I hope that with my story it reaches to those struggling to see the beauty in their life. You may walk thru hell and sometimes feel Like the world is never on your side. What I can tell you though is once you change your scenery in your life and reach for nothing but happiness, that is what will come to you.
How the Boudoir Photoshoot Made Victoria feel:
Before the photo shoot I was extremely nervous with a sense of excitement. This was a new experience for myself. For the first time in a really long time I felt like I fully accepted and appreciated the person I am and the body I was in. After going through a domestic violence relationship & becoming a single mom, I didn’t ever think I would describe myself as sexy again. Katie arrived, and she immediately made me feel so incredibly comfortable. She was more than sweet and encouraging throughout the photo shoot. She made me feel so beautiful while taking my pictures. I actually pushed myself to show parts of me that I never thought I would. And what was even more surprising was I become even okay with showing it to the world. It was nice to feel sexy and beautiful again through my own eyes. This was an awesome experience and she really made me feel like I was worth so much more.